a bout my life and how hard it was

hi every one im micheal im going on 22 i was marreid at 17 i have three lovely children 2 girls one boy .i didt no what i realy was tell 19 i told to get married when i was young all of my famliy get around me .this stage in life ive been ture every thing i had a rough life from the beging of the age of 5 upwards.im my children nearly last there lifes 2 of them in 2008 because of a rare thing that runs in both of our famliys children have passed away all ready over the famliys not knowing about it in time but mine is ok now.well any about me i do suffer in silcent over being gay and cant talk about it to any traveller cause i would be killed over it im looking for friands contacts .were mylife is now im moving out from my wife just waiting for my rent allon for a three bedroom house .i would like to be happy once more i do feel very lonely at times and down even du i have chlidren i dont tell lies about myself who ever want to no me thats every thing that i can say hope to hear from you soon compiltaped

Hello Micheal its great to have you here!

I understand that all this must be a very anxiety filled transition for you but fair play to you for making it! So many of us will never cross that line of self empowerment and rest in the idea that our lives are meant to be as other people tell us. Having very much being in your position in the past (although without children... which I am sure are a deep blessing) it can at times be a bit of a struggle.

Another member of ours Jonnie is/was (I'm unsure of the current status) married which a few youn ones and from my experience as one of the offline core members many of our members that do not use the net are also in the same position as yourself – so you are far from alone in all this.

Again well done on being so honest with yourself and welcome to the forum... I'm quite looking forward to getting to know you

Paddy